I was an in-the-closet NERD (a list of things that scare me)

I was not intentionally hiding my nerd. Nobody was nerdy. Or so it seemed because I did not seek my interests. Now that I have a more formed idea of my passions, I can reach my full nerd potential
I will tag things so people who maybe aren't nerds, or are still in the closet might understand.

When the DM randomly says “roll an initiative” - Dungeons and Dragons

signing rent checks (or checks in general, its like sighing away the soul of my fanatical situation) – Life Crap

Cantrips , counter spells, mana ramp, burn spells, life gain, overrun, planswalkers. - Magic the Gathering

the term 'gender fluid' like, im pretty sure everything is fluid, we are human, nothing is certain. The fact that we can even try to understand that is miraculous. - mind=blown

too many books, too little time – WHY am I only one person?!?!

the in-the-closet term. I dont know how I feel about it. Like, I hide my pancreas, and thats not in the closet. -words are faulty

I dont know how to play chess. I want to learn, but im afraid because I perceive myself as stupid. - self fulfilling prophecy

love. - what the heck is it?

My unstable medical issues, and the bills that come with it. - just.. ehh

communication. It cannot be stable, or even depended upon. Yet it is so beautiful. - literature

when Cecil fades out and Dana is panicking. - Welcome to NightVale podcast

I cant finish pain medication makes me think all weird – my back hurts